Josh Clayton's Blog

Before I start this post I would like to say a massive thank you to all those people who have read my posts so far it means a lot. A lot of people have been reading my posts and it's really inspiring.I never thought after my Mum passed away that I would do this but it has helped me so much and if I can help other people at the same time then it's a bonus. In this post I want to talk about something that people don't really talk about which is flash backs. You know those scenes and moments in films and TV shows when some one will get a flash back and it will instantly transport them back to a bad moment they once had or to an important clue? Well that keeps happening to me as well. My flashbacks can manifest themselves in very strange ways and can come on at anytime. I've had them for as long as I can remember and it doesn't look as if they are going to go away. I first started to get flash backs after my Dad died every time some one mentions the hospital where

As I write it has been seven months since my mum has passed away and the start of me being parent less. I have been a on a journey since July but it really started before that when mum was diagnosed. When Mum was diagnosed in November I had to come to terms with at lot of information at once the first thing that I had to come to terms with was that mum was seriously ill and would need a lot of treatments. The second thing I had to get to my head around was that mum would never get better the cancer was there and it wasn't going away. Something else I had to get my head around was the fact that one day I wasn't going to have any parents in my life anymore. I have already wrote that my Dad passed away when I was 12 and now my Mum was telling me at the age of 25 that She wasn't going to get better. I can remember the night that Mum was taken from us and the moment my new life started I was surrounded by nurses, doctors and family. The moment I had been expecting for the pa